Wednesday, February 7, 2018

A discouraging word

One week ago at this time I was in the OR.

I'm having another rough day. I feel cranky, depressed, grumpy and sad.
I'm off the narcotic pain meds as they were really not sitting well. A good friend told me to hang on to them and bite the bullet and TAKE ONE before my physio appointments. Now that scares the heck out of me. Are they going to work me that hard???

After I have my nice hot shower I feel very relaxed and sleepy. I'm going to do that in a bit, roll up in my big puffy duvet, and get a couple of hours while I can.

I received word this morning that a fellow I've known and worked with (in childrens theatre) since he was kid, died very suddenly - probably with a heart attack. Another reason to feel depressed.


  1. Oh Karen, I'm so very sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. It's so difficult to see those we've known and cared about for a long while leave us suddenly. It's a different, internal pain of grief and compounded with your physical pain, I can see where it would be a most challenging day indeed.

    There are few words of comfort one can offer, other than to say let yourself feel the pain of your body and the pain of your heart. You don't have to be happy or cheery. That will come in time. But it doesn't have to be today. Just let yourself BE, however that is for you. And trust, if not in tomorrow, then next week or next month. Sending big cyber heart hugs.

  2. Good lord, an awful day. Be as grumpy as you wish. Tell the dog how grumpy you are. Save the pain meds. My plan would be to schedule the physio for after lunch. Get up, eat breakfast, eat an 8 hour med, go back to sleep. Get up at noon, eat lunch, go to physical therapy. That's what I did, and it got me through PT on killer drugs.
    Whatever--I wish you all the best.

  3. I am sorry about the loss of your friend.

  4. Soryy, but hope you feel better tomorrow!

  5. Thanks friends, I hope today is a better day